Charlie's Blog

I’ve never been drunk before in my life - I intend on keeping in that way… woah, what a way to start a journal entry. So many thoughts are going through my mental nd as I’m writing this, but seem to leave ke the moment I try to focus on one. The one comes to mind is when I visited Cale Town, we were talking n our way to Cape Point and stopped at a fuel station as I had to go to the bathroom. No idea why this featured but I’m writing it nonetheless. Let’s try to focus on somet

I often wonder why I write this, I'm speaking of the day but not speaking about me in the day. So, let me try I guess. -- I enjoy getting up early, but it takes a bit of effort. That effort is rewarded by a search the first rays of sunlight visible between the gutter's downpipe. Still, that's what city life is all about. Longing for something that you don't have, or maybe that's just what we do in general. Work started off early, I feel I'm in the rat race already, either cha

I've become complacent in my duties, in my responsibilities, in myself. I don't feel the responsibility to be happy, atleast right now and atleast this morning so far. What's been on my mind are 2 things, primarily my relationship issues and work. I'm unable to let go, i believe it's called a 'trauma bond'. That or being co-dependant of some sort. I'm co-dependant on or trauma bonded to C. I'm not in a relationship, I'm in a 'roommate-ship'. What I find myself wanting is to b