Reflection, a journey through the mind - 15/10/2025

So, it's been a while since I've wrote for a consecutive period of time. It is refreshing to continue writing, expressing thoughts & feelings one would usually not reflect over during the busy day.

I found myself taking the reigns today, something I've not done in a while. I felt a bit uneasy at first but was aware it was the correct choice and that's where I'm meant to be. Work has been going better, I feel I have alot more energy, am less tired and more focused. I have a good routine, getting up between 05h30 - 06h00 and getting to work by 06h30.

I hope to delve into my psyche a bit more in future, to understand more of what makes me me, what makes me unique and what I want. I was able to clearly & calmly state my boundaries about 2 topics that made me uncomfortable, whether those boundaries are respected are a different story. I discussed with C about reflection, however distractions always seem to occupy the anxious mind, avoiding questions that disturb the masked safety.

I've noticed where there is anxiety, there is direction. Direction to resolve, to change, to address a problem, a feeling or some aspect one is unhappy with. I should lean into discomfort. I should become comfortable being uncomfortable.